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On Growing Up and Letting Go

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Most of you might not know, but today is the day I turn 18. Personally, I still can't believe it. 18 is such a scary number. It's such a big and important number, that signifies that I'm an adult now. How can I be an adult when I still feel like I'm 16?? I'm not ready yet. I feel like time is going faster and faster as I grow older.

Here's the thing: I always hate birthdays. Not all birthday, it's more like my birthday. I hate the idea of growing up, taking responsibilities, being on my own, trying to find my way and leave my mark in this big world. Sure, I'll always have my family. But as we grow older, so is our parents and brother/sister. I hate to think that while we meet everday now, one day I'll lose my parents and become distant with my sister. Like phone call and meetings every few months distant. Why would anyone want to celebrate that?

There's this part of me that can't wait to make my own path. Make a living on my own. Finally able to fulfill my dream of travelling. Meeting new people, trying new things (that my parents won't allowed) and just come out of my shell. But the prospect of growing up, the future and one day losing everything I have now is too teriffying. I get that nothing stays the same. I just feel like I'm not ready to face those changes so soon. What if I messed up and fail in life?

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Next month will be my first time living on my own. The university start at the end of August, and I'll move out since it would consume too much time and energy by going back and forth between home and uni. And believe me when I say the traffic in Jakarta is one of the worst. So for the past month we've been doing a lot of clean up and I found so many of my childhood stuff like dolls and books about random facts that I used to love (yes, those books were my childhood. I LOVED them.), and it brought so many memories. I don't need them anymore, so I tried to give them away. But I can't. I tried. I really do. It's just, those stuffs hold so much memories, happy things and the warmth and familiarity of my home. I can't imagine letting them go. I know it would make other children happy, or help shaping future scientist. It would be more useful elsewhere. But I just can't let them go.

Now that I think about it, I've been having problem with letting go for as long as I could remember. I hate it when my parents replaced the old furnitures with the new ones. That bed is where I slept for 5 years! The sentiment and feelings I have for those things are hard to forget. If you ever watch the tv show Hoarders, I'm pretty sure I'd end up like that.

I think my problem of letting go is my main reason why I hate birthdays. My birthday means I'm growing up. And growing up means things are going to change. I have to let go of the comfort of home, friends that have been with me for so long, the familiar routine of school (which I hate) and accept the fact that it's time to move on with my life.

I'm trying to be okay with it. The future is scary because we don't know what it has in store for us, so for now, I'm just trying to be present, enjoy the moment, and go with the flow. I'll try to enjoy university, living alone, and make a lot of new friends. I know this post seems immature and spoiled, but it's what I feel and I know so many people feel the same way (even though there are also people that's excited for it. You people, how do you do it??). I just hope everything would work out in the end, and I can be happy with everything I have❤

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IT'S TIME.

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I Have No Idea What To Put As Title

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Hey guys! It's almost midnight in Indonesia, which means it almost 2016!

I can't believe how fast this year flew by, and I had both good and bad experience from this year.

I just want to thank you guys for visiting this blog, commenting, leaving kind words behind and stay throughout this year. You guys might not realize, but your visits and comments really means a lot to me and helps me grow throughout the year. Thank you guys for this amazing year, I can't wait to grow more in 2016!

I also want to share some of my favorites this year, music and other stuffs. I hope I could find new things in 2016, and broaden my interest! Of course, there's no book related stuff here, because I already posted about that.

Favorite Music: Kings by Years & Years. // This song just give me feels!

Favorite Singer: Ryan Tedder! I fell in love all over again with his voice. I mean, have you hear him singing and hit those high notes??? So beautiful.

Favorite TV Show: Teen Wolf! Honestly season 5 is the goriest, creepiest season! And the ships! They're so complicated!

Favorite Actor: I think it's a tie between Tom Hiddleston, Michael Fassbender and Lee Pace. OH GOD. Dear Tom, that british accent? That smile? Soooo adorable! And Lee Pace is such a cutie! And Michael?? He has some mad acting skills!

Favorite TV Fictional Characters: Liam Dunbar. If you guys watch Teen Wolf you know what I mean.

Favorite Movie Fictional Characters: Erik Leshnerr. I re-watched X-Men this year and I just realized how First Class is the gayest superheroes movie I've ever watched. But Erik? He's a psycopath but he thinks he does the right thing, protecting the mutants because humans always hunting them.

Favorite TV OTP: DESTIEL 4 LYFE.

Favorite Movie OTP: STUCKY. I even dreamt about them???

Favorite Finds in 2015: Blogging community! It's actually the first year I took blogging seriously, try to post routinely and actually be a part of the blogging community. I love how warm and welcoming you guys are<3 Also I find this community on Tumblr called Studyblr. They share tips and tricks on studying that actually makes me want to study. WHAAATT? But seriously guys, they're amazing.

Best Thing Happened to Me in 2015: Homestay Program! I actually love love loveee the experience and currently craving to go back to Perth even though it was only last July.

Worst Thing Happened to Me in 2015: New class. It's just... I hate the new class okay? The people are just selfish and they just don't care about our class. They're too individual and UGH I JUST HATE IT. they're a good individual. but not as a team.

So basically those are what this post all about. I hope you guys have an amazing New Year's Eve, partying or not, and finally, cheers! Here's for an amazing 2016!

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2016 Goals!

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We're here guys! I can't believe it's almost the end of 2015. It feels just like yesterday I celebrated New Year's Eve, and now we're going to celebrate it again.

2015 has been an amazing year. I got back into blogging, I joined a homestay programme, and I turned 17 which means I already got my ID! This also means I'm on my final year at school and it has been pushing us harder than ever. But I have pretty solid friends and we usually ditch our schoolwork and just have fun together :D I think it's important to make as much memories with them as I could because after this we probably won't see each other again.

Since it's almost 2016, it's time for me to set some goals for the new year. A fresh new year, with no mistakes and bad memories (yet). I think it's quite important to set some milestones and goals so you could see how far you've come. So here are my goals for 2016...

Learn how to drive // I'm 17 so I could get my driving license, but first, I need to learn how to drive!
Learn how to apply makeup // I'm never fond of makeup, but as a teenage girl, I find it necessary sometimes when I'm attending formal events.
Run more // I ran quite a lot this past year, but I want to make it a regular activity.
Read more // This year, my reading goal was 65, and I managed to read more than that. So I think I'm going to read 70-75 books this year. Not only to read more, but also read from other genre such as nonfiction.
Get into the university // It's kind of scary that I'll get into the university next year... I'm not ready help!!!
Socialize more // I'm not anti-social, I just.... feel awkward sometimes.
Be a kinder person // I'm not mean. I swear I'm not. I'm just moody.
Learn how to cook real food // I could cook some instant food like pasta or noodles. But recently I tried to cook fries and they ended up burnt.... Which makes me realize how poor my cooking skills (if I have any) are.
Complete the 2016 Goodreads reading challenge and 2016 Popsugar reading challenge (I barely finished the 2015 one).
Get my priority straight.

So yeah... Those are my 2016 goals. Let's just hope I could stay on track and complete everything, since I never managed to complete new year's goals...

Do you have any goals for 2016? If you have any, what are they?

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Deck the Halls!

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Long Cold Nights Favorites

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Another Christmas theme post! Tomorrow is Christmas guys!

December 24th-January 1st it's like the most comfortable nights of the year. We don't have winter in Indonesia, but it was pretty cold since it's the rainy season. I could just stay up all night, reading and watching the Christmas lights twinkling at night, just soaking up in the holiday feels. So today I'm going to share with you guys what I usually do during those holiday nights.

But FIRST: Get comfortable. Wear you favorite pyjamas. Play a Christmas playlist. Light the Christmas tree and the candles if you want. Snuggle up inside a blanket. Drink hot chocolate. Bring them all into a spot and just stay there and enjoy the night!<33

Books

1. Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte

Well this one isn't very Christmas-y, more like autumn/fall, but it's really appropriate for cold weather.

2. The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern

Again, this book isn't really Christmas-y, but it was beautiful and enchanting, with all the magic and details.

3. My True Love Gave to Me by Stephanie Perkins

This is a book for the holiday seasons. Seriously guys, this book is just perfect for Christmas/New Year holiday. It has 12 cute romance that will fill you with the holiday spirit.

Movies

1. Harry Potter and the Sorceress's Stone

This one is a obvious choice! Why only HP 1 Tasya? Well because the story just got darker each book (and each movie) and this one has the most nostalgic and Christmas-y feelings!

2. Edward Scissorhands

I love Tim Burton's movie. But my favorite would always be Corpse Bride and Edward Scissorhands. Corpse Bride has more Halloween feels to it, so we skip it, but Edward Scissorhands? It sets around Christmas. It made me cry. WHY HUMANS WHY??? Edward just looks so sad and lonely gosh :( So yeah, this movie is highly recommended.

3. Marvel Movies

I LOVE watching action movies at NYE, so I guess this year I'd watch a lot of Marvel's movies like The Avengers, Age of Ultron, Thor, and Thor: The Dark World. I can't wait for X-Men Apocalypse and Civil War!

4. Nightmare Before Christmas

Another Tim Burton's movie! Even though this isn't my favorite, this movie is like my must-watch movie on Christmas Eve.

Other than reading and watching movies, I also love just scroll the internet reading fanfiction or log in to Tumblr. I love celebrating the holidays with people from all over the world! Enjoy your holiday guys!

What do you like to do on holiday nights?